sometimes when we live around the jerks, we don't even remember that they're jerks anymore. we think everyone in the whole world are a bunch of jerks and we don't realize that there are some nerds living around us. some nerds who don't expect sex from a relationship, some nerds who feel guilty even before they commit a crime.

suddenly the world is a playground to enjoy to the fullest. sex, alcohol, drugs, clubbing, prostitute, they are just tools to enjoy life. nothing right or wrong anymore, it's just life. life that only once we get, only once we can enjoy, only once we can ruin.

Paramore - Adore

I don't mean to run
But every time you come around
I Feel more alive, than ever
And I guess it's too much

Maybe we're too young
And I don't even know what's real
But I know I never

Wanted anything so bad
I've never wanted anyone so bad

If I let you love me
Be the one adored
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for

If I let you love me
(If I say)
Be the one adored
(It's okay)
Would you go all the way?
(You can stay)
Be the one I'm looking for

Help me come back down
I'm high above the clouds
You know I'm suffocating
But I blame this town

Why do I deny
The things that burn inside?
Down deep I'm barely breathing
But you just see a smile

And I don't wanna let this go
Really I just want to know

If I let you love me
Be the one adored
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for

If I let you love me
(If I say)
Be the one Adored
(It's okay)
Would you go all the way?
(You can stay)
Be the one I'm looking for

If I let you love me
Be the one adored
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for
Be the one I'm looking for

If I let you love me
(If I say)
See the one adored
(It's okay)
Would you go all the way?
(You can stay)
Be the one I'm looking for

makin keliatan deket makin ngga bisa diraih
bikin makin emosi

ah, what a life!

saya cuma anak kecil yang ngga bisa nolak kalo dikasi permen
cuma anak kecil yang ngga bakal nolak kalo dikasi balon

My Girl Warriors

i just love being myself. my life's awesome, my friends are awesome, i am as awesome as my life wants me to be.

i love you and i thank you Katarina Siena Koesmajadi for being such a nice bestfriend for all these years. You don't know how much you've helped me all along. it was very nice to met you at my first day and it is still nice to meet you everyday.

i love you and i thank you Angelia Stephanie for being such a great friend every time i need someone to bully. :P Thank you for being so patient. I see your patience and I want to have the same patience maybe more.

i love you and i thank you Agnes Monica for being such a perfect idol for me. I will never stop dreaming and believing, hoping that one day my dream will come true.

i love you and i thank you Stefanie Dyah for being such a fun partner in crime. I never feel racist when I am around you because we're both basically racist. :D

i love you and i thank you Permata Karina, Nur Humaira, Reca Johani for being such lovely housemates after all these years. I thank you for the help, the understanding, the sacrifice, all things we've been through this year. I will never forget you guys. :)

you guys are the most awesome girls in my entire college life!

Sari Simorangkir - Bagi-Mu Pujian

Ku datang padaMu, membawa pujianku
Hanya kekuatan hadiratMu sanggup menjaga hatiku
Mendekat padaMu, ku mau sentuh hatiMu
Biar ku melihat kemuliaan yang Kau sediakan bagiku

BagiMu pujian, hormat kemuliaan
Kaulah kebanggaan di dalam hidupku
JanjiMu bersinar, buktikan Kau besar
Tiada yang sepertiMu Yesus Tuhanku

Mendekat padaMu, ku mau sentuh hatiMu
Biar ku melihat kemuliaan yang Kau sediakan bagiku

BagiMu pujian, hormat kemuliaan
Kaulah kebanggaan di dalam hidupku
JanjiMu bersinar, buktikan Kau besar
Tiada yang sepertiMu Yesus Tuhanku

i need something new. something to boost my energy.
something to keep my head straight, to keep me in front of my notebook doing something useful instead of drowning in someone else's dream life.

Kadang-kadang hidup itu lucu juga. kalau suatu saat saya menyesali keputusan yang saya buat, somehow hidup akan menunjukkan bahwa keputusan saya itu berdampak lebih baik, walaupun mungkin bukan keputusan yang paling tepat.
kadang-kadang saya dikejutkan oleh fakta-fakta kecil yang membuat saya 'batal' menyesal. Apa pun itu. Entah saya terlanjur membeli sesuatu, pada akhirnya saya tahu kalau saya mendapat banyak benefit dari sesuatu itu. Kalaupun saya membuang sesuatu, nantinya saya akan mensyukuri bahwa saya telah melepaskan sesuatu itu sehingga hidup saya menjadi lebih baik.

Well, mungkin hidup memang punya jalannya sendiri.

kadang-kadang orang suka ngga ngerasa kalo perkataannya nyakitin orang lain, kalo perbuatannya somehow menyinggung orang lain.
kadang-kadang orang suka buta, nasehatin orang lain sementara dia sendiri kelakuannya sama persis.
kadang-kadang suka ngga tau kalo wrong accusation needs apologize.

yah,, aneh emang makhluk yang namanya manusia.