do you know what's funny about life?

ketika kita merasa semuanya terkendali dan baik-baik saja,
nyatanya dunia diputarbalikkan dan diacak sampai porak poranda.

ketika kita merasa semuanya berantakan dan serba tidak terkontrol,
ternyata tak ada angin sedikit pun yang berhembus menggoyangkan dunia,
dan semuanya lebih dari baik-baik saja.

lalu, salahkah memiliki ekspektasi?

do you ever feel like the whole word is in silence?
like the time freezes, nothing is important.

like you're lost. don't know where and when.
don't know what to do. don't know where to go.

i don't want to be here any more second.
yet i can't run.

your mother gives everything to you
why can't you give one thing to her?

Don't say you're sorry if you don't mean it

Don't say you're sorry if you want to do it again

Don't say you're sorry if you know you can't promise you won't do it again

Avril Lavigne - What The Hell

You say that I'm messing with your head
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friend
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts, whether it's right or wrong
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees,
beggin' please
'stay with me'
But honestly,
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking 'What the hell'
All I want is to mess around,
and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me,
you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now,
whoa 'What the hell'

What,
What,
What,
'What the hell'

So what if I go out on a million dates
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong,
I just need some time to play (yeah)

You're on your knees,
beggin' please
'stay with me'
But honestly,
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking 'What the hell'
All I want is to mess around,
and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me,
you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now,
whoa 'What the hell'

La la la la la la la la, whoa, whoa
La la la la la la la la, whoa, whoa

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now,
I'm thinking 'What the hell'(what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking 'What the hell'
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me, if you hate me,
you can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, 'What the hell'

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

recently, i have found my visual communication task that said:

"I DON'T LIKE WORKING IN GROUP"

this is why i don't like working with people:

1. I don't thrust people enough to let them working on something without my considerations, therefore I have to check on what everyone's doing.

2. I don't like to explain my thoughts to people, that's why I tend to follow other's idea than to explain my idea to them.

3. Even if I have explained what I want, there are still some of them who didn't understand and did it wrong and it's kind of pissed me of.

4. I prefer to take responsibilities of my own mistakes than for other's mistakes.

Well, I guess that's the reasons. Even among the little group I trusted, I still can not count on them in everything. That's why when I want it to be perfect I just have to do it myself. If it turns out it didn't perfect at all, it's all my fault and I blame no one but my inability.

saya tidak punya keberanian untuk bilang saya iri
tidak cukup berbesar hati kalau saya memang kurang dari anda semua
pun tidak cukup saya termotivasi oleh anda semua

lalu harus apa saya ini?

Jakarta

Jakarta mengubah saya.

Ia meningkatkan ketidakpedulian saya, membuat saya sendirian.

Ia membangkitkan harapan sekaligus menenggelamkan.

Ia membuat saya tergantung pada perkembangan zaman.

Terantuk prinsip dalam pola pergaulan.

Romeo and Juliet

Act I - Prologue

Two households, both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona, where we lay our scene,
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny,
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star-cross'd lovers take their life;
Whose misadventured piteous overthrows
Do with their death bury their parents' strife.
The fearful passage of their death-mark'd love,
And the continuance of their parents' rage,
Which, but their children's end, nought could remove,
Is now the two hours' traffic of our stage;
The which if you with patient ears attend,
What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend.

Inspired to the greatest love story of the entire human race..

We proudly present:

A visual novel game by GBM 5.0.

selalu ada perbandingan buat saya. dan selalu bukan perbandingan yang baik adanya.

that's not fair, but again..

life's never fair so I'll just bear with it.

Rachel Yamagata - Quiet

Baby says I can't come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked
You know and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

Take care
I've been hurt before
Too much time spend on closing doors
You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don't cry
You know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything to change when I leave

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAT!

Hi my dearest friend, happy 21st birthday to you!

I hope you will get everything you've dream of.

Don't feel lonely, because you have a lot of friends who support you.

God bless always..

P.S.. I am trying to congratulate you in every social media that you have.. haha

once again, Happy 21st birthday!

Jikustik - Untuk Cinta

Pernah kita bersama, pernah kita bahagia
Mengarungi dunia, berjanji tuk setia

Aku tahu dirinya yang terbaik untukmu
Namun lihatlah aku, lelaki yang merindu

Reff:
Bila sinar surya terang menerangi kita
Ku kan mendekapmu erat takkan ku lepaskan
Walau kini engkau telah memilih dirinya
Ku ‘kan selalu berharap
Ku ‘kan selalu menanti untuk cinta

Aku tahu dirinya yang terbaik untukmu
Namun lihatlah aku, lelaki yang merindu

Reff:
Bila sinar surya terang menerangi kita
Ku kan mendekapmu erat takkan ku lepaskan
Walau kini engkau telah memilih dirinya
Ku ‘kan selalu berharap
Ku ‘kan selalu menanti untuk cinta

beberapa hari ini saya begitu merindu

merindukan rumah dan manusia-manusia yang tinggal di dalamnya

saya ingin kembali

ketika masih bermimpi dan berwajah bayi

lucunya blogging adalah, kalau lagi ngga ada internet sangat banyak yang pengen ditulis.

begitu udah online, langsung blank dan ngga tau mau nulis apa. atau udah teralihkan oleh hal lain jadi hal sebenernya yang mau ditulis jadi ngga ketulis..

Pelajar SMP ditusuk 18 kali tanpa alasan.

Really, people?! are you insane?

Need To Breathe - Something Beautiful

In your ocean, I'm ankle deep
I feel the waves crashin' on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
But I can't figure out, yeah I can't figure out

Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your tide rushes over me
There's only one way to figure out
Will ya let me drown, will ya let me drown

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh,Oh,Oh something beautiful

And the water is risin' quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side, no I can't leave your side

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh,Oh,Oh Something Beautiful
Oh,Oh,Oh Something Beautiful

In a daydream, I couldn't live like this
I wouldn't stop until I found something beautiful
When I wake up, and all i want i have
You know it's still not what i need something beautiful

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh,Oh,Oh something beautiful
Oh,Oh,Oh

Nada Surf - Inside Of Love

watching terrible tv
it kills all thoughts
Getting spacier than
An astronaut
Making out with people
I hardly know or like
I can't believe what i do
Late at night

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

Only when we get to see
The aerial view
Will the patterns show
We'll know what to do
I know the last page so well
I can't read the first
So i just don't start
It's getting worse
[chorus]
I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
Must be a different view
To be a me with a you

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
Of course i'll be alright
I just had a bad night

there's an expiration date for everything.

foods, goods, even life.

you can not wait forever.